Even so, the breakthrough ride in France highlighted the
very problem she faced. “After the World Championships, I reached out to a lot
of sponsors for the next season. I love cyclocross, I love racing, and I never
wanted it to be about money, but at some point in my life I do have other
things I want to pursue. Finishing 13th at Worlds without a summer program or a
nutritionist made me realize how much more potential I had, but to unlock that,
I really needed a salary.”
Clouse credits the Steve Tilford Foundation with giving her
the chance to continue racing at all, even if the financial support had its
limits. “At Steve Tilford, we got all our travel compensated for, which I am
incredibly thankful for. I think we were the only American team to receive such
financial support.
“Cyclocross, for me, has never been about a lifestyle; it
was my life and I wanted to perform as well as possible. I really tried hard
with sponsors, but several months after Worlds it became clear to me that
things weren’t working out. I concluded life was taking me in a different
direction, so I decided to focus on academics. I am working full time, boosting
my resume to start medical school or PA next year. With that degree, I hope to
give back to the cyclocross community which has given me so much.”
Her pathway through the WorldTour exposed both opportunities
and challenges. In 2022 she joined Human Powered Health, racing the Giro and
Paris-Roubaix, but the jump came earlier than she was ready for. “I never say I
wish I didn’t go to Human Powered Health, but it came too early in my career.
Back then, there was no Junior Women’s scene in cross, and the road scene was
far less developed as well.
“The only way up for us girls was to get on a WorldTour team
as soon as possible. I got that opportunity to learn, but I also found out that
racing at that high of a level while being in school wasn’t for me. The
schedule took a heavy toll on me, and I felt burnt out by the end of my
contract. It would have been nice to have the same opportunities the girls have
now, but I still wouldn’t have done anything differently despite the ups and
downs.”
Her final World Championships ride in Liévin earlier this
year stands as a testament to her talent, achieved despite imperfect
preparation. “My performance in Liévin came after just two months of being
fully locked on cyclocross. I barely raced in the summer, because I was working
to make an income. My start to the domestic season was therefore slow, and only
once I came over to Europe after nationals did I feel like I was approaching my
top form.
“You need to be fully focused on cross if you want to take
on the Europeans: they live and breathe cross. They are so dialed, it requires
my A-game to be competitive. Up against full-time riders, I fought with
everything I had in Liévin. It was a little bittersweet to finish 20 seconds
off the top 10, but still… Looking at the riders I beat with the preparation I
had, I am super proud of my performance.”